The journey called the “Dark Night of the Soul” is not a punishment. It is sort of a test to get you to the next level. It’s a way to get in your face, and get you to grow. Sometimes its relationships, money, jobs, housing dramas. The gifts you receive after this journey can almost seem like you’ve won the lottery.
It is a way to get you to release things, jobs, people who are no longer a match to where you are heading. This is not a judgement against those things. It’s about you growing as a person. Sometimes its about the “Shadow Work.” What exactly does that mean? It’s about taking back your personal power and not being a door mat to other people. It’s about respecting boundaries. It’s about not rescuing everyone from themselves.
It’s also about facing your dragons, demons that you’ve created for yourself. This is not about putting yourself in dangerous situations. Although, some people constantly do this and are some how oblivious to the consequences. This is about making peace with yourself. If there are things about yourself that you want to change then here is your opportunity. If there are things that others don’t like about you. You need to decide if you like or don’t like that about yourself. Everyone has a light, grey and dark side to them. This is just who we are as a whole. No one is a saint!
So as you hit rock bottom, take time to reflect and see what areas of your life you’re at peace with? Sometimes these changes come from the result of a divorce. Take responsibility for those things that are yours. The rest, let it go! Things happen to people all the time. It’s not because people are good or bad that stuff happens. So don’t judge yourself or others.
Bringing in the life you want can be like driving a stick shift. If you’re faking your calmness but not really feeling it. You might be close but just not in gear yet. When you’re in that inner peace calm. You know that things are coming your way. The Universe has your back and you will not fall into that panic freaked out state.
By being in that inner peace of calm, you are staying grounded so that you can accept the good things that will be manifesting soon in your life. This calm is a guidance that your on the right path. When you lose this calm for longer than a day or two. Back track to see where you lost that calm feeling? When your fearful, your on the wrong path or you might have missed your turn on the road.
It’s harder to make changes for the positive when you’re in chaos mode. You will notice more of what you didn’t want coming into being. Even if you have to go to a library to find that calm or a museum. The pay off is worth it! By having more and more moments of calm in your life it will allow you to start to shift the things in your life more easily.
When your committed to healthier changes, you will start to see doors opening up to you that were closed before. In some cases it will be like pebbles showing you the path that you weren’t able to see before. Once you’ve reached one goal it will seem as if more steps building upon each other to get you to the next goal if its achievable in a short time? I say achievable, because if you need to learn more things to reach the next step. It might seem as if the next step is just a little bit out of reach.
Once you are ready for more and more steps the changes will fall into place a lot more easily. Pay attention to the details, each goal might have more or fewer steps. Sometimes, it’s all about the journey and not the destination. Things that can seem as if they are failures might be the stepping-stones we needed to show us that we didn’t really want that path at all.
Tonight I was thinking about a very weird spiritual experience I had in my early twenties. It was around 4 am, because all the fun things happen around that time. I was in bed sleeping and when I felt my hair blowing and standing on edge. I could feel this arctic cold blast of air blowing. The thing was, this air was coming from an inside wall. I remember becoming fully awake and being terrified of where this air was blowing from. I tried to breathe as quietly as possible. My hair was blowing and standing on edge. I had goose bumps on my air with fear.
I remember hearing in my head the golden key. Hears where the real irony comes in. In 2006 I renamed my business from Tarot by Penny to Raven Hawke. I renamed it because I was adding healing to my business. I also kept seeing a raven and hawk together over and over. I took this as a sign to be the new name for my business. I soon had to think of a mission statement. I then decided to name it “Spiritual Change for Positive Growth”. For whatever reason, I decided to look up what the golden key meant. There are several stories and meanings. It is very ironic that two stories each have a part of the mission statement.
Who knew, I’d name it after different aspects of the golden key? I had a similar experience with one of my paintings. In 2015 I was painting Nefertiti in water colors. I couldn’t think how to spell her name at the time when I was titleing the painting; so I just settled on signing it Beauty. Later when I looked up her name, it means beauty.
I will say that being on a spiritual journey is never dull. It will be challenging and you will sometimes wish you had a manual. This journey is unique to you and you alone. That’s why sometimes our paths are meant to be walked alone. This is about getting to know yourself and knowing Spirit on a personal level. These are things, that religion can never truly teach you.
Your are never being judged on this journey! There is no pass/fail? This is your personal journey to allow yourself to grow and learn. There is no right or wrong decision-making. It is about getting more comfortable in your own skin. It is making the best decisions at the time for you. After all who else could you be? This is your journey and it does not ask permission or acceptance. It is about making it the best journey for you. It’s about finding peace within yourself.
You are given some pretty incredible gifts. You reach out to someone who has come to mind to find out they needed your help. This is what makes this business very rewarding. It is the helping of people or fellow practitioners. Sometimes you will find that you’re helping your tribe that has a problem they don’t know how to solve. It makes all those classes that you were chasing down when you were trying to act normal and busy running from yourself.
Our world is changing and becoming more accepting and yet judgemental in other ways. This journey of finding out who we are and what we’re all about. This journey can be exciting one minute and scary the next. The forced vacations are about you and your clients. You will never be able to fully help your clients until you’re at your best. We as practitioners give to the point that we almost have nothing left to give. By taking time, to explore and play. We have more energy to bring to the table.
Nothing is more rewarding when a client or another practitioner tell you how much you helped them. This is not an easy journey. Sometimes it can feel like torture to focus on relaxing. It has become so foreign to us that we tend to feel guilty. Only other practitioners can understand the inner struggle. This time that we take for ourselves allows us a chance to explore and grow. It bring more inner calm back to the soul.
This is the gift we bring to our clients is the inner calm for their souls. Be it in a reading or a healing or both. These journeys are healing for both the client and the practitioner that help them grow more on a spiritual level. Be selfish and heal. This your time to rejuvenate.
Time to reflect, time to check in and see if your life is the way you want it. If not, don’t panic! You call the shots and you can make changes. This is the perfect day to plan your fantasy day! If your single it’s all about you!!
If you’re in a relationship, it’s a nice time to do romantic or spontaneous things for each other on that day! Each person can help plan what they want to do on that day or not. Think as it as a journey or destination.
Every person has a different idea of what’s romantic or fun! You get to make the rules and have lots of fun on this day. Entertainment unfortunately needs to be planned out sometimes depending on what that means to you. If you weren’t able to do it this year there is always next year.
Plays, concerts, art museums are some fun ideas for some. Watching that favorite movie and planning a delicious meal are other ways to indulge. What will be your next destination?
Theater is always interesting, especially if it’s a classic where it is imitating the realities of current life. Music and art can be entertainment of the senses.
Whatever you do, make sure to take some time for yourself!
Ever have a transaction not go through. Sometimes it won’t go through on the first time or it won’t go through 3x in a row. These are messages, pay attention maybe it’s not a good idea and that’s why it won’t get through.
The Universe has a way of trying to warn you about deception. Hearing a conversation by accident or person talks unguarded when they don’t know their being recorded on your voicemail. These are all examples that the Universe is looking out for you and you are not on this journey alone.
You just have to pay attention and not go through life sleep walking. You’ll find things go a lot smoother and easily when our fully awake. Just remember you have to participate in your life and not go through life on remote control.
In 1995, I had just started a new journey in my life. I had a great opportunity to see who I was a person and start discovering more about myself. I had just gotten a divorce and didn’t even really know anything about myself. I started by making little changes at first.
I started changing my household cleaners to organic ones and my headaches started to decrease. I started to take classes at the Open U to get an opportunity to just play and explore what my likes and dislikes were. I had just started to finish up my bachelor degree. I started to explore things that I was interested in before I got married.
I decided to take psychic development classes, a ghost busting class and aura reading classes. I was exploring my job. It no longer fit me. I had never really been crazy with my employer. I decided to put my resume out there and take chances. My resume was out there for two years without any nibbles. I wasn’t too crazy about my house. It was 636 sq. ft. I felt like I was going nuts in such a cramped house. I decided that if the job wasn’t going to change then I was going to at least be in the house I wanted.
I had heard stories about how people looked for months. My house sold in about the first week. It was a seller’s market. Worried that I might not find something in time, I asked to close in August. I found my house in the third week in June. Between June and August, I went on a total of three job interviews. By August, I was to start my new job in the first week of September and close on my house in the end of August. The best part was that I would receive a hiring bonus.
Who knew that when I started my journey that I would see such beautiful returns on my future. All by just exploring and being true to myself and goals. The miracles that I see happen in my life always make me smile.