The journey called the “Dark Night of the Soul” is not a punishment. It is sort of a test to get you to the next level. It’s a way to get in your face, and get you to grow. Sometimes its relationships, money, jobs, housing dramas. The gifts you receive after this journey can almost seem like you’ve won the lottery.
It is a way to get you to release things, jobs, people who are no longer a match to where you are heading. This is not a judgement against those things. It’s about you growing as a person. Sometimes its about the “Shadow Work.” What exactly does that mean? It’s about taking back your personal power and not being a door mat to other people. It’s about respecting boundaries. It’s about not rescuing everyone from themselves.
It’s also about facing your dragons, demons that you’ve created for yourself. This is not about putting yourself in dangerous situations. Although, some people constantly do this and are some how oblivious to the consequences. This is about making peace with yourself. If there are things about yourself that you want to change then here is your opportunity. If there are things that others don’t like about you. You need to decide if you like or don’t like that about yourself. Everyone has a light, grey and dark side to them. This is just who we are as a whole. No one is a saint!
So as you hit rock bottom, take time to reflect and see what areas of your life you’re at peace with? Sometimes these changes come from the result of a divorce. Take responsibility for those things that are yours. The rest, let it go! Things happen to people all the time. It’s not because people are good or bad that stuff happens. So don’t judge yourself or others.
Spirit is talking, but are you listening. We all dream every night. This is the easiest way that Spirit can communicate with us. Always blow your dreams off as dreams. Well how can you hear Spirit when you refuse to even pay attention. Spirit is always willing to communicate with you. If you go about life always in a daze; like the walking dead you’ll never get what Spirit has been trying to communicate to you.
If you ever take the time to actually look around you. You’ll start to notice all the zombies walking around with their heads down as they’re glued to their cellphone. The irony, is that if their not careful they soon will be part of the death toll; just by walking across the street with their head down oblivious to their surroundings.
Messages even come in the form of nature too. The thing is that you have to be actually aware of your environment. They even come in the form of songs playing on the radio; pay attention to the lyrics of the song. That message could be meant for you. Animals can also be messengers too. The messengers will so be in your face sometimes. That gigantic dragon-fly that is right in front of your door.
The messages and messengers will usually stand out. They are usually in your face. If you’re a zombie glued to your phone that will the only way that you won’t get the message. These messages can help make life a little easier to negotiate.
Bringing in the life you want can be like driving a stick shift. If you’re faking your calmness but not really feeling it. You might be close but just not in gear yet. When you’re in that inner peace calm. You know that things are coming your way. The Universe has your back and you will not fall into that panic freaked out state.
By being in that inner peace of calm, you are staying grounded so that you can accept the good things that will be manifesting soon in your life. This calm is a guidance that your on the right path. When you lose this calm for longer than a day or two. Back track to see where you lost that calm feeling? When your fearful, your on the wrong path or you might have missed your turn on the road.
It’s harder to make changes for the positive when you’re in chaos mode. You will notice more of what you didn’t want coming into being. Even if you have to go to a library to find that calm or a museum. The pay off is worth it! By having more and more moments of calm in your life it will allow you to start to shift the things in your life more easily.
When your committed to healthier changes, you will start to see doors opening up to you that were closed before. In some cases it will be like pebbles showing you the path that you weren’t able to see before. Once you’ve reached one goal it will seem as if more steps building upon each other to get you to the next goal if its achievable in a short time? I say achievable, because if you need to learn more things to reach the next step. It might seem as if the next step is just a little bit out of reach.
Once you are ready for more and more steps the changes will fall into place a lot more easily. Pay attention to the details, each goal might have more or fewer steps. Sometimes, it’s all about the journey and not the destination. Things that can seem as if they are failures might be the stepping-stones we needed to show us that we didn’t really want that path at all.
People assume racism is a white thing. Unfortunately nothing could be further from the truth. All cultures can be guilty of racism. Whenever there is segregation, there is racism. All people lose out! This keeps people from having interesting conversation and learning on an intellectual and cultural level. Everyone has something to teach and learn from one another.
Art is another form of communication, math, sciences and music are all a form of communication that crosses all cultures and bridges the gaps in language from culture to culture. The people who are hurt the most by racism is the children. Since the beginning of time there have been explores and conquerors that have intermarried. The results have usually been children to bring those cultures together.
I once visited NY because one of my friends lived there. She was originally from Jamaica. They had pockets of segregation all over. It isn’t just NY a lot of the east coast states have it too. They’ve just become so used to it that they don’t really see it. They might point their finger at some southern states. Saying that that’s where a lot of racism is but that’s not really true. They are both doing the same thing, but its more obvious to those that don’t live there.
It’s like that elephant in the room, either they’ve become used to ignoring it or no one wants to address it. This instigates useless violence against people who haven’t taken the time to get to know each other or try to understand the differences. It’s the 21st Century and we still have not grown as people. I can’t say culture, since the US doesn’t really have a culture. We are composed of lots of subcultures or mix of subcultures.
There is no total norm across all of these subcultures. It’s very unrealistic to assume that everyone should just act that same or think the same. We aren’t a hive mind. There is a lot of manipulation to try to set subcultures against each other. We see a lot of it being manipulated in our media with ads.
Unfortunately, these were the very tactics used by Nazi Germany to incite violence against certain groups and it was very calculated in their WAR play book. When people hate, we all lose. We lose knowledge and growth.
I have had many looking-glass experiences. I was in a drafting class in high school and was looking at the floor plans, when I suddenly had seen a future event. I put that aside for a while. Later I again had another experience with that. I saw someone’s past life relationship and saw that the souls had never grown. They had had the same roles in many life times. Neither of the souls had ever learned and grown.
In both of these of these situations, I was to meet both of these people around the same time. Both of these relationships, were in my life about the same time. Because I’d seen a future events in high school and had past life memories of this person. I kept this person at arm’s length and protected my heart as best I could. I then moved forward with a relationship with the other person. I knew that I was trying to help this soul move forward and become unstuck.
I eventually left this relationship. This time it did move that soul out of the pattern that they had been stuck in for centuries. I encountered another opportunity with the other person again. I even had a dream, where there was a conversation in the dream. Within a week or a month the exact scene in the dream played out. I remember thinking to myself, “What’s my line?” This ended up never going anywhere.
This was the a huge blessing, it gave me the opportunity to finally take the time to get to know myself. Many people flee from getting to know themselves. These are great opportunities to allow yourself to grow as a person. It makes you realize what you want and don’t know. These can be very nurturing experiences. Every person should take the time to have a relationship with themselves. Once you get to know yourself, there is no going back. It is a confidence builder.
No matter big or small, it’s always important to celebrate those changes in our life or environment. You can start any where? Sometimes its a desk or a chair, it might be dusting it or removing papers that have been there for a long time. Just by starting to go through a stack of papers and deciding if we can finally let it go or if it needs to be kept. It is these small steps that lead to our victories.
As we clear what no longer serves us we start to feel lighter. This helps to create opportunities that start to materialize in our physical world. When you pick something up in your house or office. Focus on how it feels to you? When you hold it are you feeling heavy or lighter? Does it make you feel happy or sad? This will help you decide if it has a place still in your life.
Even looking at your life. Are you happy where you are in your life? Did your life get better in this last year? Stay the same or get worse? Is this something you can change or is it something that really is beyond your control. If it’s not something, you can change. Then make only changes to the places in your life that you do have control over and see if something doesn’t start to move and change for the better.
Even if it is the smallest victory celebrate or give gratitude for it. These are building blocks that help build momentum for changes that we need. If you’ve had to deal with an extremely abusive relationship in your life or work life. We sometimes go through periods of forced sabbatical. This is the Universes way of giving us time to heal.
Tonight I was thinking about a very weird spiritual experience I had in my early twenties. It was around 4 am, because all the fun things happen around that time. I was in bed sleeping and when I felt my hair blowing and standing on edge. I could feel this arctic cold blast of air blowing. The thing was, this air was coming from an inside wall. I remember becoming fully awake and being terrified of where this air was blowing from. I tried to breathe as quietly as possible. My hair was blowing and standing on edge. I had goose bumps on my air with fear.
I remember hearing in my head the golden key. Hears where the real irony comes in. In 2006 I renamed my business from Tarot by Penny to Raven Hawke. I renamed it because I was adding healing to my business. I also kept seeing a raven and hawk together over and over. I took this as a sign to be the new name for my business. I soon had to think of a mission statement. I then decided to name it “Spiritual Change for Positive Growth”. For whatever reason, I decided to look up what the golden key meant. There are several stories and meanings. It is very ironic that two stories each have a part of the mission statement.
Who knew, I’d name it after different aspects of the golden key? I had a similar experience with one of my paintings. In 2015 I was painting Nefertiti in water colors. I couldn’t think how to spell her name at the time when I was titleing the painting; so I just settled on signing it Beauty. Later when I looked up her name, it means beauty.
I will say that being on a spiritual journey is never dull. It will be challenging and you will sometimes wish you had a manual. This journey is unique to you and you alone. That’s why sometimes our paths are meant to be walked alone. This is about getting to know yourself and knowing Spirit on a personal level. These are things, that religion can never truly teach you.
Your are never being judged on this journey! There is no pass/fail? This is your personal journey to allow yourself to grow and learn. There is no right or wrong decision-making. It is about getting more comfortable in your own skin. It is making the best decisions at the time for you. After all who else could you be? This is your journey and it does not ask permission or acceptance. It is about making it the best journey for you. It’s about finding peace within yourself.