Sounds like a movie, doesn’t it! Sometimes, when you’re not feeling in a nice mood. Just embrace it. This is usually a result of stuffing down all those things you wanted to say to a person that deserved it at the time it happened. Unfortunately, we are surrounded by people who like to point fingers and not look at their own shit. I call this not having a life. These are the people we explode on when we’ve had all that we’re going to take. They will look at you as though your crazy and play the victim.
I also call this a result of not letting your inner child play. This is part of your strength, that says enough is enough. When a lack of respect and boundaries is constantly experienced there comes a breaking point. When you start exercising boundaries you will find that these outbursts start to become less frequent. In our PC society, of sterilizing everything and censoring other people. It has become this monster for creating more of these situations.
If more people would just be honest with their feelings and emotions and messy as they are! If people don’t like messes, certainly don’t engage in finger-pointing. That mirror might come snapping back into place and show that finger pointing right back at yourself. While your embracing the dark side, let it say everything its wanted to say if the person is still alive. If not, then write a letter and put everything in it. No matter how bad and then when your done, burn it. If you can’t say things to the living person because your afraid of the fall out, than write it all out and burn it.
This is about exploring your present or past to build a better foundation for your future. Sometimes we to through unpleasant times and the take away can vary by individual. It can be learning what we don’t want in our lives. How to fix something? That we can survive and we are strong?
A lot of these lessons sometimes can’t be learned in a classroom. That’s not saying that we wish to go back to these experiences in any shape or form. It is to acknowledge that we have learned and grown from them. In some cases what we learned can be shared with others. These experiences also have made us stronger, and learned things about ourselves that we might never have learned.
No matter big or small, it’s always important to celebrate those changes in our life or environment. You can start any where? Sometimes its a desk or a chair, it might be dusting it or removing papers that have been there for a long time. Just by starting to go through a stack of papers and deciding if we can finally let it go or if it needs to be kept. It is these small steps that lead to our victories.
As we clear what no longer serves us we start to feel lighter. This helps to create opportunities that start to materialize in our physical world. When you pick something up in your house or office. Focus on how it feels to you? When you hold it are you feeling heavy or lighter? Does it make you feel happy or sad? This will help you decide if it has a place still in your life.
Even looking at your life. Are you happy where you are in your life? Did your life get better in this last year? Stay the same or get worse? Is this something you can change or is it something that really is beyond your control. If it’s not something, you can change. Then make only changes to the places in your life that you do have control over and see if something doesn’t start to move and change for the better.
Even if it is the smallest victory celebrate or give gratitude for it. These are building blocks that help build momentum for changes that we need. If you’ve had to deal with an extremely abusive relationship in your life or work life. We sometimes go through periods of forced sabbatical. This is the Universes way of giving us time to heal.
With us being in the New Year, think about the changes that you want to make in your life. What do you like? What do you hate? What’s so-so? In some ways its similar to cleaning out your closet. What do you want to do, but haven’t had much time for? By making incremental changes you can start to chip away and make the life you would really like.
Do you like where you live? Like the location but maybe not how your house looks. Can you do a remodel or would you rather live in a different house? People in our life, are they changing with us or are you finding that you have nothing in common? By pulling somethings apart and taking a closer look at whats working and whats not.
Take small bite size changes, this way its easier to see if your going in the right direction or if things are starting to fall apart? If you’re a feeling person this will be easier for you. Feel how these changes feel to you. Are you getting anxious? calmer or excited. If you are feeling panicked in any way. Back off from those changes. Changes should not send you into panic mode.
If you going into panick mode don’t move forward. We have fear in our life for a reason. It’s to prevent us from jumping into danger. Anyone that pushes you to go into a panick mode isn’t a smart person to have in life decisions. Change will feel different, but it should either make you feel calm or excited. Before making changes in your life, you might want to check in and see how you feel about it before making the change.
Having calmness in your life is a good gage. It means that your making sound or good decisions. Change should not bring on a panick attack. If your learning a new skill and only understand the minimum. It might be a good idea to work under a person who has those skill sets mastered until you feel more comfortable.
Things that are less risky financially, can be played with or tweaked to see what works or what doesn’t. Unless you can find a mentor, who is doing something that you’re trying to do. Just remember there are many ways to change and learn things.
Tonight I was thinking about a very weird spiritual experience I had in my early twenties. It was around 4 am, because all the fun things happen around that time. I was in bed sleeping and when I felt my hair blowing and standing on edge. I could feel this arctic cold blast of air blowing. The thing was, this air was coming from an inside wall. I remember becoming fully awake and being terrified of where this air was blowing from. I tried to breathe as quietly as possible. My hair was blowing and standing on edge. I had goose bumps on my air with fear.
I remember hearing in my head the golden key. Hears where the real irony comes in. In 2006 I renamed my business from Tarot by Penny to Raven Hawke. I renamed it because I was adding healing to my business. I also kept seeing a raven and hawk together over and over. I took this as a sign to be the new name for my business. I soon had to think of a mission statement. I then decided to name it “Spiritual Change for Positive Growth”. For whatever reason, I decided to look up what the golden key meant. There are several stories and meanings. It is very ironic that two stories each have a part of the mission statement.
Who knew, I’d name it after different aspects of the golden key? I had a similar experience with one of my paintings. In 2015 I was painting Nefertiti in water colors. I couldn’t think how to spell her name at the time when I was titleing the painting; so I just settled on signing it Beauty. Later when I looked up her name, it means beauty.
I will say that being on a spiritual journey is never dull. It will be challenging and you will sometimes wish you had a manual. This journey is unique to you and you alone. That’s why sometimes our paths are meant to be walked alone. This is about getting to know yourself and knowing Spirit on a personal level. These are things, that religion can never truly teach you.
Your are never being judged on this journey! There is no pass/fail? This is your personal journey to allow yourself to grow and learn. There is no right or wrong decision-making. It is about getting more comfortable in your own skin. It is making the best decisions at the time for you. After all who else could you be? This is your journey and it does not ask permission or acceptance. It is about making it the best journey for you. It’s about finding peace within yourself.
Most people dust and vaccuum their home and keep it clean. Some not so much? When you have different people in and out of your home and personal space. That energy become absorbed in your energy field and your home. This energy can affect how people interact with you and opportunities that open or don’t open up to you.
Just like you would shower everyday. You might want to pay attention to the energy around you. Using real incense or a smudge bundle can help get rid of this energy. Pay attention to how your incense smells next time you burn it. If it smells sour for any reason you might want to start to burn a purifying incense or a sage bundle to purify your space.
When you burn your incense again after the purification. It should not smell sour. If it does, you have more clearing to do. Salt is a purifier as well. You might want to put salt in a small container such as a votive container. This will absorb any heavy or negative energy that has come in with you.
The dimensions between the realities is getting thinner. When you go to sleep are you just dreaming or going to anther reality? More and more individuals are having other experiences on other dimensions instead of just going to sleep. Parallel dimensions, some of the people their seeing there are people that they know in this reality and some they know from other realities.
Almost like living a double life only you jumping from one to the other. The story lines are very real. Food, conversation and events. You can feel and experience everything just like being awake. Time lines are starting to crash together. some will be premonitions, others will just be other events that are unfolding behind the scenes.